What is it?????

So yesterday was a GreAt dAy!! We had our ultrasound!! Before I go into what it is I have to get some feelings I've had throughout this pregnancy out. About a year ago I had a miscarriage, it was the hardest thing I've ever gone through, I completely had given up on actually having kids, decided I wasn't good enough or that something just must be wrong with me.. Anyway, when we found out we were pregnant this time, I didn't want to tell a soul.. In all honesty I didn't even want to tell Josh.. but seeing as he is here and very aware of me and how I feel, there wasn't a chance I could keep it from him. He seriously had to talk me in to telling anyone, I could have waited until there was no way for me to deny it because it just scared me to have to go through the whole telling people and then losing the baby, and I didn't want to do that At aLl!! If you don't understand why, that's totally fine, I'll try to explain.... for me it was a very personal thing that I really didn't want to get any attention about (I don't like people to see me hurting or in pain).. As time went on those that did know about the miscarriage (which weren't many) would talk to me, and it did help to deal with that loss. But still I didn't want to share our news this time.. Even hearing the heartbeat at the Doctor's office didn't put me at ease.. And even yesterday at the ultrasound I questioned if the baby is really in there.. (I'm very warped I know) all night I kept thinking well maybe it was just a video of another ultrasound that I was seeing and they really didn't see anything... (I know nuts!!!) I wouldn't even let PJ know up until yesterday that we were expecting (just the fear of losing it and not wanting him to have to experience that)... Anyway you're all probably thinking I am totally nuts, and that's ok.. I think that most the time :o) I know this post is all over the place but if you really know me then you know this is pretty much how I talk... so hopefully you've been able to follow everything I've said. Now for some happy thoughts :) When Josh and I started talking about starting a family and praying about it we both felt like there was a little one just waiting for us (we both had a feeling it was a little girl) so when we found out we were pregnant this time Josh just knew that it was a girl (I however didn't allow any feelings one way or the other-- miscarriage fears and me just believing that there really wasn't anything in there) everyone has been saying it is a girl (and I mean everyone.. even people that don't really know me.. ) so yesterday at the ultrasound all I kept wanting to know is if the baby was healthy and what was it! Well after laying there forever looking at every other part of the baby (and I mean every other part) we finally were told that it is a GiRl!!!! We are sooo excited (if I'll just believe that it's really in there... right)!!! Pj actually starting crying when we told him he was going to have a baby sister, he was like but I want a baby brother I want a boy.. it was pretty sad :o) but after explaining to him that Heavenly Father decided that we were supposed to have a baby girl and that with a girl he wouldn't have to share everything of his.. (little does he know about little sisters they will want to play with ALL your toys..) he was very excited!! He was like we need to go to Walmart right now and get her a toy, so we did :) he picked out a little baby for the baby. Very cute!! And he is very happy now (so that helps!!) Our little one already has a name picked for her (unless she comes out looking like it won't fit her at all.. but I'm doubting that) her name is Ashby Lynn Hull. Well I'm sure you are tired of reading this novel, so I'll say goodebye for now.

Big update.. Halloween till now..

I kept trying to get him to just smile for me but he had to have the guns and he had to be holding them like this.. once has something in his mind that is how it is.. it's very difficult to get him to do anything but that.. He's a cutie anyway :)

I know it has been forever.. I apologize, I have been so sick! If you haven't heard we are expecting!! I'm at almost 13 weeks, and am starting to have moments of feeling a little more human. What with the thyroid issues and the bacterial infections that I've had I've felt like I have had the energy of a rock.. So that is my excuse for not updating. We should pretty much be up to date after this one.. (I think)

Christmas!!

We went to a Christmas party with my family in Gunnison, it was so much fun, I love being with family! We didn't celebrate Christmas at our house until about 3:00 on Christmas day (We didn't get Pj until then..) so we just slept in and enjoyed that. I was feeling very sick by this point.. so the sleep was wonderful! Christmas was so much fun, we can't wait until we have a little baby to share it with next year!

I'm going to be a big brother picture!! I know probably crazy that I had PJ holding the pee stick, he had no clue what he was holding.. he actually thought it was a sword and kept wanting to pull the cap off.. I had to be quick to take the picture and grap it from him before he pulled it off :) We are so excited and can't wait to meet our little one! We feel so blessed!

Pj's Birthday!!

Pj turned 4 this year!! We had a party for him at our house. Dionne, Dave, Liv, Dawson, Tessa and Grandma Gloria came to celebrate! Thanks everyone for coming! It was fun!!

Halloween 2009

We had Pj this year and went to Gunnison for Halloween, it was so much fun! Pj was Darth Vader (for some reason he usually likes the bad guys..) Pj made Grandma Della pose with him :) Pj & Kyler are unseperable whenever we visit! They usually both end up sleeping over at Grandma's house! They are just sooo cute together!! PJ turned 4 this year!! We had a party for him at our house, Dionne, Dave, Liv, Dawson, Tessa and Grandma Gloria came to celebrate!!

I know I'm terrible!!

I know I'm terrible.. months and months and no updating! And to be honest I really don't feel like updating right now.. I'd much rather be climbing into bed and just sleeping.. Things are good though, just busy and we found out this week that my thyroid is low (so they've started me on medicine for this) which causes the lack of energy.. and I also have some kind of bacteria so I am also on medicine for this.. so hopefully with all these medicines I'll start to feel less like a zombie and more like a human.. but I'm not promising anything. We are loving our new home! We had Pj's birthday in November which was fun (I'll post pics later of that I promise). We had my whole family and Josh's mom here for Thanksgiving which was SO fun! And then we just had a quiet Christmas at home.. I missed my family soooo much!! I can't wait to get down to Gunnison to see them all again! Anyway, for now this will have to do for an update. I promise to try to be better and post more later.

Our New Home!!

So we are moving to a house!!! I am sooo excited and absolutely love it!! The whole process is very stressful!! HUGE step for us, and a HUGE commitment, but so worth it! I still can't believe this is our home! It is seriously a dream home for me.. I'll post more later with some pics of things actually in the home :)

1 Year!!!!

Well, we made it to one year!!!!! For our anniversary we were able to go to Mesquite (thanks to my mom) Thanks Mom!!! We had a blast, it was so nice to get away and just spend time together. We've gone through alot our first year of marriage, mostly health issues.. For now we both seem to be ok and I couldn't be happier about that! I still feel so lucky to have Josh as my husband, he truly is my very best friend! I can't imagine my life without him. He was definately worth waiting for!!
I again forgot to take my camera with on our trip so no pictures.. My goal is to get better at remmebering to bring our camera so we can take pictures of the things we do.

..... hmmmm.. not much to post about

So, I figure I better post something.. considering it has been over a month. So what we've been up to the last month.. We had my grandpa's funeral, which was a beautiful day. We had the Taylor family reunion, which was fun. Then we had the Peterson family reunion. We went camping for the Peterson reunion, it was the first time PJ had ever gone camping, and he did GREAT!! He loved sleeping in the tent and was just sooo proud of "his tent". That's pretty much what we've been up to.. all that and work.. I'll try to get some pics posted of atleast some of the things we've been up to soon :)

Saying goodbye to one of my heroes

My Grandpa Peterson passed away this morning, it is a relief to know that he isn't in pain anymore, but I am really really going to miss him. I am so grateful for having him be a part of my life. I feel so lucky to have been able to see him Thursday night and to have been able to tell him that I love him, and even luckier that he told me he loved me back and gave me a hug and a kiss. Crazy to think that not even 12 hours after that he would take such a turn for the worse and not really say much else. I know he is in a better place now, and I really hope he knows how much he was loved and that we will miss him.